New Year, New Start

Well...it's time for those damned old resolutions. Since Mom passed away my world hasn't been that bright and sunny, it's been a little gray and somewhat murky. All my happy moments make me think of Mom and all the things she is going to miss. It's been a self-sabotaging habit and it's given me a cynical "why bother?" attitude.

Therefore... one of my resolutions is to stop my little pity party. I have so many things that are positive in my life and it's time I start dwelling on all the possibilities that 2009 will bring me.

Therefore...another resolution is to get myself into an organized routine. I have been a scatterbrain for most (all) my life and at least if I have a routine I can be a scatterbrain and still accomplish the things I need to do. If I don't get organized, how can I take full advantage of those opportunities?

My house, while I love the property it is on, is just plain ugly. I have a roof and we have plenty of space but the people we bought the house from...I don't know what they were thinking.

Therefore...this is the year for a home makeover. Actually, it's may take more than a year but this is the year to start.

Once summer heat took hold around here my plant sales slacked off and so did we on working in the greenhouse. It's pretty messy now and I don't like it.

Therefore...I resolve to spend at least 15 hours a week at my greenhouse. I think this will also help me with resolution #1. I'm always happier playing in the dirt.

My boys are the most important things in the world to me. Cody has the capacity to lay the world at his feet but lacks the ambition, while AJ has ambitious goals but soo many obstacles.

Therefore...It's time to focus more on their well-being. I need to make Cody understand that he has to do more than just get by, he needs to excel. I also need to spend more time giving AJ the tools to achieve his goals. This means focusing more on reading and comprehension more than anything else. I believe if you have that then you can learn anything.

My maternal grandfather died at age 43 from a heart attack, and my mother had her first heart attack at 43. I'll be 41 this year and my family has a history of heart disease on both sides and diabetes on one side. It's time to get my shit together. I'm at least 45 pounds overweight, and I'm sure my cholesterol is sky high.

Therefore...this is the year to get healthy. This means eating better (hard because I love to bake) and exercising. I resolve to exercise every morning even if it's only stretching.

Ok, you think that's enough? Reading this makes my life look like a mess. I have so much to be thankful for and this year I'm going to concentrate on the positive and correct the negative.

I hope that everyone had a wonderful year and I would love to hear your resolutions! Maybe sharing will help us all achieve them .